Trust in you, oh Lord (Day 3)

On Monday, as I was driving to the gym I realized how God’s love teaches us to trust Him.  As I was driving  I thought about those whom I love, my mom, my sisters, my brothers, nephews, my boyfriend, my friends and something became clear to me. When any of the people that I love needs my help, not only do they trust that I will be there for them, but I also trust the love I feel for them will guide me in how to help them. God loves us unconditionally and since He has such love for us we can trust that He will always be there for us, that He will come trough in our time of need, the same way that are loves one trust us in their time on needs and we come through for them.

Personally, I cannot bear to see someone I love suffer, I cannot bear seeing a complete stranger in pain, I share their pain. I put myself in their shoes and want to do whatever is in my power to help them. Why? Because I’ve been there, I’ve been in pain, distress, sorrow, happy, joyous, content, etc. And through all of these experiences God has been there for me, whether I realized it then or not I know in my heart God has never leave my side and will never do so. God is willing to help me, if I let Him, God is willing to take me in His arms and carry me through anything and everything.

Angel Vazquez

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9

Trust in you, Oh Lord.

So, this morning God whisper in my heart that He wants me to write this week about how to trust Him in all circumstances. About how to trust him when we are happy and in joy and how to trust Him when things don’t work out the way we want them to. I can honestly say, that trusting God in all areas of my life has been and sometimes still is something I struggle with. In my case, each day, God ask me to release an area of my life to Him and to fully trust that He will take care of it. Sometimes that’s not easy to hear to the part of me, who always wants to be in control, the part of me that think it can do better. Somedays, releasing to God something as simple as what should I eat for breakfast can be a struggle. Other days, somehow I find the courage to release my heart fully to Him and I get to experience God’s love, embrace and the power of His grace and favor in my life. Those days, that somehow, miraculously I am able to do this I re-learn how to be compassionate with myself and others, I learn how to see the world through a different set of eyes, I remember that I am loved beyond measure. I realized that I can relax and let God lead the way.

And on days, that I find hard to release the smallest part of me to Him, I find a loving  father, patiently waiting for me to be ready to do so, loving every part of who I am. I find a pair of eyes that look at me and say “I am here, I am not going anywhere, I faithfully love you and I understand you and what you are going through.”

In my life, I have trusted people and like many others been hurt, got my heart broken, held on to the pain and regret instead of forgiving and letting go. I have thought that I was trusting God but in reality I was trusting my idea of God, and idea that honestly couldn’t have been further away from the truth of who God is and what it means to fully trust Him. What I have come to understand, to know is that whether today I am ready to say God, here is my life take it and do with it as you please, or I can only say God, here is this tiny, tiny part of me that I am willing to give you today, use it for your glory. His love is never failing, He is faithful and day by day, minute by minute, moment to moment I find my heart opening more and more to a love, peace that I had completely forgotten about. To a love that I didn’t think I deserve, but somehow because God love me I do.

Angel Vazquez

4 For the word of the LORD is right and true; he is faithful in all he does. 5 The LORD loves righteousness and justice; the earth is full of his unfailing love. 6 By the word of the LORD the heavens were made, their starry host by the breath of his mouth. Psalm 33 4-6

The Gifts.

I heard somewhere that if from the moment I woke up I couldn’t think of anything else to do but singing, that I was singer, that if I couldn’t think of anything else but writing that I was a writer, that if I couldn’t think of anything else but dancing that I was a dancer. What I forgot to ask was whomever said this to me was, what if I wake up wanting to do them all and much more? 

Well I guess the joke was on me, because for so long I have been trying to fit myself in one box. Either do this or do that. But that’s not how God created me. God created me with many passions and with the skill to them all gracefully. I am no longer one or the other I am Angel and Angel has many things He loves, many talents I like to share, many gifts I have to offer. No need to box myself up and be one thing or the other. I want to be all that God created me to be, when I return to heaven I want my talent and gifts bank account to be in the negative because I use more than I was given. How about you?

Angel Vazquez

Spiritual Teacher & Musician